I turn 25 tomorrow.... that's a big number! When I was little, the thought of turning 20 was like WOOOOAAAHH...... I never considered the possibility of making it to 25, and if I did, I'm sure I pictured myself as a Grandma!
But here I am! 25, still no kids, living a life of travel, adventure and relationship with God that I could never have imagined or pictured either.
They say your brain is fully formed at 25! About 3 months ago I realized that there were habits in my life that I didn't actually want to carry with me for the rest of my life, and there were things that I wanted to accomplish that I hadn't even started working on! So I started "getting my life together".
I began working out consistently, eating healthier, taking better care of myself and investing my time and money into the things that I feel really matter to me.
That's all good and what not, and I'm proud of my consistency and faithfulness in those areas (with the occasional slack!), but there are other things that are of greater importance.
In looking at my life, I found that I looked more like the world around me, both christian and non christian, than like my Daddy.
I carried in me the same insecurities, lies and strongholds of fear that the lost world, and sadly the church carries. Of course MINE sound more holy. I loved selfishly, I gave sparingly, I lived fearfully - bound by the religion that I swore by.
So, tomorrow is my birthday. What's different? It has taken, and still takes a lot of biting my lip, and diving in when fear wants to pull me under, but I have chosen, and am choosing every day that I will not look like anything or anyone else but my Father.
I'm not going to waste my time with anything that does not line up with His character wether thought or action. This is the state in which I begin this new year. I have hope for greater things! Greater fear of the Lord in my life, greater capacity to love, greater vision and dreams, greater and greater intimacy with Him.
I am so thankful for the years of patience He has given me, and for all the people in my life who have blessed me so very much.
It's gonna be a good year :)
But here I am! 25, still no kids, living a life of travel, adventure and relationship with God that I could never have imagined or pictured either.
They say your brain is fully formed at 25! About 3 months ago I realized that there were habits in my life that I didn't actually want to carry with me for the rest of my life, and there were things that I wanted to accomplish that I hadn't even started working on! So I started "getting my life together".
I began working out consistently, eating healthier, taking better care of myself and investing my time and money into the things that I feel really matter to me.
That's all good and what not, and I'm proud of my consistency and faithfulness in those areas (with the occasional slack!), but there are other things that are of greater importance.
In looking at my life, I found that I looked more like the world around me, both christian and non christian, than like my Daddy.
I carried in me the same insecurities, lies and strongholds of fear that the lost world, and sadly the church carries. Of course MINE sound more holy. I loved selfishly, I gave sparingly, I lived fearfully - bound by the religion that I swore by.
So, tomorrow is my birthday. What's different? It has taken, and still takes a lot of biting my lip, and diving in when fear wants to pull me under, but I have chosen, and am choosing every day that I will not look like anything or anyone else but my Father.
I'm not going to waste my time with anything that does not line up with His character wether thought or action. This is the state in which I begin this new year. I have hope for greater things! Greater fear of the Lord in my life, greater capacity to love, greater vision and dreams, greater and greater intimacy with Him.
I am so thankful for the years of patience He has given me, and for all the people in my life who have blessed me so very much.
It's gonna be a good year :)