"You need to know when you're in a season to produce roots, or when you're in a season to produce fruit"
~K.V.
~K.V.
I tend to always want to be in a fruit bearing season because when I'm in a season of growing roots I feel like I'm being left behind. I look around and see my friends, or other people who are flourishing and seeing fulfillment to promises or words they've received from God. Then I look at myself I see only growing pains and stretch marks, which, gross... nobody likes stretch marks.
I know I've gotten promises from the Lord. Not to mention the piles of dreams and passions just simmering deep inside me.
My soul asks the question " When Father, When will it be my time? What am I doing here, where am I going? Are You good, or will I be left behind as others walk on into their destiny?" Of course I know that they've had to wait too, but I am 26 years old and sometimes I still feel like I haven't "found it". What ever "it" is.
The other day I was pondering this in my heart I was a wee bit dissatisfied and mopey. I felt the gentle conviction of the Holy Spirit. He reminded me that I had lead 3 DTS's and staffed others, he showed me of the faces of the people He had ministered to through me and of all the places I have been.
I realized that I couldn't disqualify all the good He has done in and through me by being dissatisfied with what my life looks like compared to someone else's. That doesn't honor Him or show gratitude at all for everything He has done!
I'm not always good at recognizing the season that I'm in. Right now I'm definitely in root bearing season...
Even though right now I feel like I'm on a stationary train watching the world fly by as sit and wait I'm learning to let the flashing landscape of another's journeys outside my window paint a beautiful picture of possibility rather than cause me to be anxious. My heart is learning to trust Him again in yet another way.
When God builds something, He builds it to last. He's building roots in my life that can sustain the fruit they are meant to bare. Besides, Jesus didn't start his ministry until he was 30... I've still got time :)
I know I've gotten promises from the Lord. Not to mention the piles of dreams and passions just simmering deep inside me.
My soul asks the question " When Father, When will it be my time? What am I doing here, where am I going? Are You good, or will I be left behind as others walk on into their destiny?" Of course I know that they've had to wait too, but I am 26 years old and sometimes I still feel like I haven't "found it". What ever "it" is.
The other day I was pondering this in my heart I was a wee bit dissatisfied and mopey. I felt the gentle conviction of the Holy Spirit. He reminded me that I had lead 3 DTS's and staffed others, he showed me of the faces of the people He had ministered to through me and of all the places I have been.
I realized that I couldn't disqualify all the good He has done in and through me by being dissatisfied with what my life looks like compared to someone else's. That doesn't honor Him or show gratitude at all for everything He has done!
I'm not always good at recognizing the season that I'm in. Right now I'm definitely in root bearing season...
Even though right now I feel like I'm on a stationary train watching the world fly by as sit and wait I'm learning to let the flashing landscape of another's journeys outside my window paint a beautiful picture of possibility rather than cause me to be anxious. My heart is learning to trust Him again in yet another way.
When God builds something, He builds it to last. He's building roots in my life that can sustain the fruit they are meant to bare. Besides, Jesus didn't start his ministry until he was 30... I've still got time :)
//Rest my heart. Calm my soul. Close my eyes and sink deeper beneath the surface. Embrace the stretching, embrace the stillness. Let LOVE grow roots in me that will outlast the strongest winds. Be still.//